#filterlysspoetry: "that mattress."

i remember

the very beginning of us

and the day

you came mattress shopping

with me.

two people

getting to know

each other,

trying out beds together.

i didn't know it yet

but there was love for you

building inside my heart.

you lied beside me

at the store

to convince me

to get the mattress

we both knew i wanted.

you lied beside me

in my room

on that same mattress

one month later

to convince me

to take a chance

on us

even though i was scared.

(thank you.)

and

you lied beside me

in my room

on that same mattress

not quite one year later

as i convinced you,

and myself,

that there was

something missing

between us.

(i'm sorry.)

now no one lies beside me,

but that same mattress

feels heavy as hell.

the same goes for my heart.